DRUM ROLL PLEASE...

Last weigh in: March 31 2009 154lbs

Next Weigh in: May 21 2009

Stay tuned!

..::In My Mind::..

I'm not as small as others see me. I still feel like 165 and not the 152 that I last saw. Oh how the weight game is fickle! My thighs grew from 23" to 25 in the two weeks that I was entertaining a house guest! I know I ate out and over ate everyday, but two inches?!?! Didn't think that was possible.

For the past seven days though I've been better, no fast food and eating right before bed. I feel tonnes lighter and the measuring tape is slowly but surely shrinking. Good, cause in two weeks I will be in Jamaica, on a beach and I can't be mistaken for Barney in my purple one-piece from H&M!

The above pic is of me planting a shrub I got on earth day!

..::What I Know::..

This weight thing is not about being "slim". It's about obtaining a goal.

Now I've been eating so bad lately...whole bags of chips, fries, costco poutines, etc. But through it all I've been hitting the gym and notice that my body is still overall 2" smaller than it was at the beginning of the year.

Why has losing over 40lbs been so important to me? Because, along with reading the whole bible, it was a goal that I've been chasing since forever. I haven't seen the 150 since around the turn of the century...

So although I don't dwell on losing weight anymore, I do dwell on my achievement to date. I have no desire to weigh in either until I see a decrease in the measurements...maybe just before the first wedding that I'm in, May.

..::KEEP UP WITH THE NEW ME::..

It ain't easy keeping the new me away from the habits the old me had. Case and point: Last night at my weekly field trip to Wal-mart, I bought a bag of Ruffles All Dressed Chips (if you're American, All Dressed is pretty much a cross between BBQ, Sour Cream & Onion and Ketchup flavoured chips...wait y'all don't have ketchup flavour either!). Anywho within 12 minutes of purchase said large bag of chips...they were done! Never even made it on to the train home with me.

What the heck? No one said the new me can't have treats but a whole bag...I've blocked the size of the bag out of my head but I remember calculated it to be about 1400cals in the bag. Just like that at 10pm on a Saturday night. What made it so bad was that I wasn't hungry. And I was willing to wash it down with a big mac combo (supersize fries of course).

If I didn't call my friend I would have ingested closed to 3000cals that night alone!

He urged me to "think it through." He reminded me that I have weddings to look for and that I shouldn't be going overboard.

So what did I do today! After chinese for lunch, a latte, a jumbo carrot muffin...I went for a 75 minute run and 25 minute 15% incline power walk (4mph). Burned 1207cal and did 8.55miles (13.75km). So that was a 100 minutes on the treadmill!

There's one good thing about when I fall off I really compensate for it! 1207cals! Craaaazy!

NEVER MADE IT TO 150

BUT 152 WILL DO!

Wow...

Where to start with my update? Well after a year of being semi serious I've went from the following:

From a post from April 28th-
Fat Stats
Beginning Weight = 194
Beginning Size = a Jacob 13/14
Goal Lbs. = 160Goal #2 = 145Goal Size = 7/8
Current Weight = 172.7 Pounds
Current Size = 11/12-13/14
Weight Loss = 21.3 pounds
Pounds to Go = 12.7Week # = 3 (from 186lbs)

TODAY:

Measurements: 37-28.5-41
Size: 6 & 8's 30'
Goal is still 144 but I've reached my goal size (surpassed it!)
WEIGHT: 152

WEIGHT LOSS: 42LBS

Pounds to Go: NONE

My main goal is to stay under 155 and eventually under 150. For now I'm doing good.

I'm going to get working on my tips and my WHAT FAT PEOPLE LIKE column!

On Sunday I tried on a bunch of H&M clothes....all the size 8's fit! My thighs went from 27 inches (the size of someone waist) to 23! And my stomach from 37 to 28.5!!!! Hips from 45 to 41!

It's been a great journey. Now as I shift into maintenance mode I will no longer be reporting about my weight as much. I will update when I see that I've reached my ultimate goal but other than that I will be shifting from a fatty's quest for success in this weight loss thing to a reformed fatty's look on life.

I used to blog on www.yccto.blogspot.com but now I think I will link these two sites...somehow! or maybe not at all but they will pretty much have the same content!!!

BRING IT!

Weigh-in is on April 1st! I'm not nervous...even though I've been eating really bad lately! People are now saying that I've lost a tonne of weight. That could be because I've been wearing more form fitting clothing. I've lost about 1.5 to 2" all over. Doesn't seem like much to me. My stomach and arms are on my hit list come April 1st.

April 1st will be a good day! I will see 140 something. Regardless of what I'm eating now! And even more important, I'm getting my much awaited body wrap at noon on the first! After a kick butt workout of course.

Body Wrap provided by Som Visao, Vancouver-Canada www.somvisao.com

I AIN'T AFRAID OF NO SCALE!!

I will however avoid it until March 31st! I will probably go the the Y that morning and do my last official weigh in. I only need to see under 150. After this week and my intense running and weight training I think I'm at 149 at least (okay maybe 150.4) but I'm not ruining this idea by stepping on that scale! I know I ate some cookies, had a BK combo and DQ ice cream cone but I also ran 60-75 minutes and did weights everyday! The day I ate the BK combo I calculated that I still burned 1000 more calories than I ate on that day! Now put in the fact that I've eating a few chewy oatmeal cookies more than I should have on thursday night, I should at least break even this week (151.6) or be below.

Now with me not eating more than 1600 calories per day with burning 800 calories per day I should see 144 by April 11th (in 3 weeks).

It's basic math. I'm done the diet thing at month's end so I will just trust this basic formula to bring me to my goal. Next weigh in is on the 31st and after that April 11th.

After that how my clothes fit will be the judge of how fit I am. I also feel great that my only problem area is now my stomach. I don't need abs I just need it to stop hanging over my pants. That can be taken care of though with consistent core work and a diet change. I've kicked my 5 slices of bread per day habit (for now) and increased my beans and greens. I'm still aiming for a 27" waist soon.

NOTES:

• I will not substitute my cookie addiction for canned fruits! Like pineapples
• Found a new site and it's Canadian www.tinytrim.blogspot.com

CAN'T WAIT TO BE...

FREE!

No more diet journals, feeling guilty for eating, excessive purging, compulsive weigh-ins, counting calories or talking about diets or what I crave. No more comparing myself to others, wanting to be someone other than me or not being grateful for my body. No more forcing things to fit or adding to my motivation pile.

Also no more eating whatever I crave when I crave it. No more losing control over me. No more eating because I'm bored, stressed, sad etc. No more eating fast food often or dining out and overeating. No more finishing whole cakes or boxes of cookies.

There will be more activities, exercise, confidence and gratefulness. More greens, beans and all other healthy things.

Regardless if I hit 37-27-40 by April 1, and most likely before I'm 144, I will be FREE.

CURRENT STATS:

size: S and M tops, 6 and 8 bottoms (ok, just on pair of size 6 trousers from H&M!)

weight: approx. below 155 (haven't weighed in properly since last week when I was 151.8)

Current and Future Health Plan:

Eating 1600cals and exercising daily (running 5-10k and intense weight training) 1-2hours a day

Milestones:

March 31 2009 -One year below 180lbs

June 1 2009 -One year below 170lbs

Total Loss:

43lbs!!!

Read my previous entries to see my journey thus far. I didn't write personal updates for about six month (June 2008 - Jan 2009). Coincidentally during that time I didn't really lose weight. I bounce around from 162 to 172 but usually saw 167. Since I begun writing again I've steadily dropped and have increased my endurance and now run 75 minutes! Not often though, I usually stick to 60 minutes.

I can't wait 'til the end of the month

I'm gonna start acting like I'm in the 140's from now. I'm in the market for a new motivation or maybe inspiration, like a body that I would like to achieve. I am kind of procrastinating on my lunch time workout to write this but I may as well do something good while I stall.

I used to have a pic of a Spanish actress, I don't remember her name but her body (like most of the other Latina actresses) was banging. Like my Weight Watchers scale (which went back to walmart within a week) said my body fat was 31.7 give or take 0.1 or so through out last week and I now know I probably won't go down to no 15% (even though I swear back in 2001 it was like 11% when I was 155lbs). With all that being considered I have to be careful who I use to inspire me. Plus I do have curves which bring up the obvious inspirations like Beyonce, J-Lo, Tyra, Janet etc. But at the same time I feel like I have a more svelte and muscular physique like Fergie or Jessica Biel. Oh the choices...all of those ladies have a beautiful body though. But I want to choose one to emulate as I strive to be in beach ready mode by May for a beautiful beach wedding to which I am the only bridesmaid!

Soooo the winner of the I WANT HER BODY contest is....

Yes, that's kim kardashian and while i'm not a fan of anything else she does, she does have a great and curvy body. She says she weighs 120 but I'm not buying that- maybe 130 or a bit more because she is only 5"2. Her measurements are 35-26-40 and mine right now are 37.5-29-42. I have 2 inches on her though so I will look a bit more lean...I think...

As for the fact that I'm more athletic than her...well I don't think I will be walking around as svelte as Fergie anytime soon but who knows...I am a runner now!

Running Update: I dunno if I wrote about this but I run (yes run at 10kms/hr sometimes) 6 days a week and 60 minutes for two of those days and 30-45 on the the other days. Now compared to Katy from http://www.katycraker.blogspot.com/ I'm an amateur but I will work my way up to the 14 miles that she does!

P.S. I got a subscription to SHAPE...I wanted SELF but SHAPE was half the price! Can't weight to get my first issue!

IT'S NOT A CHEAT...

IT'S A TREAT.

That's the new mentality I have to have seeing as in 20 days or so I will never be on a diet again! I had a whopper combo tonight...at 10pm! No biggie. I think I will go until the 31st without weighing myself too! It is what it is at this point. I know how and when to eat and I will just being using my common sense to make things work. I mean my friend said this to me the other day and it's sticking, "I don't give myself enough credit." I don't.

It been almost a year since I've pretty much been under 170. That's a first since like 2001 but yet I'm desperately chasing to see a number that may not be in the cards for me. I'm not saying that I can't do it if I put my mind to it, I'm just saying...is it worth it?

I wanna get into the 140's so that even when I fall off the wagon I don't have to worry about seeing the 160's. I know I will get there eventually but is it worth me forsaking EVERY socializing event in the meanwhile.

No one truly understands how it feels to live with the fear of putting back on weight. I wonder how Ricky Lake feels...she's now around 124, way below the 260 she used to be. Does she remember how big she used to be? And does she worry about going back.

My friend told me this today though, "Oprah says that you should thank God everyday for the body that you have--and it's so true." Thank goodness for great friends that can support you when you have a diet related melt down...

I need to be grateful...I have come a long way and I need to just think of me being me now and not worry about how I (my body too) will be in the future!

I'm not saying that I'm done..

I'm just gonna take my time!

Sounds like a cop out but after seeing 161 on the scale six days ago, I truly began to understand how fickle this weight loss thing is. I now see 150 something again...but it's still alarming.

I just have to realize that slow and steady wins the race. So i think I will be grateful if I see 150 by the 31st! That's all I want! Seeing 144 eventually will be hot but after being 157 then 153 then up to 161 and back to 155 in just a couple of weeks, I realize that the number isn't everything.

I went to a former p/t retail work place of mine, Reitman's, last week. Back in 2000 my cousin had to surgically remove me from a pair of size 11 jeans and last summer even after losing 30lbs I was still an 11, but on Friday I was fitting into size 7's there! That was my goal..to be a 7/8. At Jacob I was a size 6 in a dress but in two different styled pants I squeezed into a 6 and an 8. The sizing game is just as fickle as the scale game so I will not let those numbers get to me either.

So now that I only have 5lbs to do in 3 weeks I feel much better. It's completely obtainable. But don't get it twisted, I will be 144lbs soon! Definitely before my trip to Jamaica! Can you say "two piece!"

Update on my quest to 144

So it's the 1st of the 3rd month of the year. I started this year with a mind to reach 144 by February 18th....for nostalgic reasons. By mid-January I clearly saw the error in my judgement and pushed the date to March 31 ,2009. On March 31 last year I had started a new position at a publishing company. I weighed 186-ish. It was when I started there that I become serious. Three months later I was 166.

Now I am approx 153. I have to weigh my self this week. My tracking chart has me saying that I should be 150.5 this week. I have 31 days to make to 144 and even if I don't, this is the end of my dieting.

And no I'm not doing that whole "it's a life change" thing. I'm ending the insanity that dieting for a decade has caused. I am admitting that even now, at the smallest I've ever been, I'm not satisfied. I am yearning to be a size that is not even possible for someone of my body type and athleticism. I don't know how to explain it. My good friend, NG, brought up the fact that we need to end this thing...always dieting, talking about dieting or binging. We need to get ourselves in check. I'm 40 some odd pounds lighter and I still have issues. It's like a never ending thing for me....

Right now what makes me wanna end it is because I want to shop for some clothes that compliment my new body and make me look trendy. Kind of like the clothes that I dress my NVM up in. Funny enough I work p/t at H&M and that's what my NVM is wearing but still I haven't really shopped there. Now I don't wanna be H&M from head to toe but I do wanna look chic and swimming in my former size 12's is not making the cut.

Now I might not be able to wear size 8's all around, but whatever size I am at midnight April 1, 2009 is what I am shopping for. My measurements haven't really changed in February but I am going to try my best to be at my goal of 37-27-39. That's a loss of 2 inches all over. I will do it!

So just to say it again....at midnight April 1 I am done done done with dieting, talking about dieting or planning my diet. I will probably plan my workouts and make sure I am putting proper nutrients into my body but I will be done trying to become a size that was probably not meant for me! I used to be almost 200. I will be under 150 and be satisfied!

Special love and kisses to my new friends in Vancouver who always tell me how great I look! And to the gym in my building for making it impossible for me to make excuses when it comes to working out...

My full thank you list is to come...including a shout out to the haters that said I couldn't do it!

...:::mY wEaKneSSeS:::...

The following, in no particular order, are foods/restaurants that will always have a warm place in my heart. Below that are foods/restaurants that are on my most wanted list....

All of these have the potential to put me back up to 200lbs therefore they are on my potential threat list.

Cinnabon

Big Mac

McDonald fries

Pizza Pizza Pizza http://www.pizzapizza.ca/

Pizza Hut

A&P Oreo Cake

Costco Cake (hold the custard)

Starbucks Red Velvette Cupcake

Starbucks Vanilla Bean Cupcake

Walmart Fresh Cupcakes

Chan's Chinese Food

Wendy's Fries

Poutine

Roti

Cracker Barrel Deep fried mac and cheese

Cracker Barrel fried Catfish

Fish and Chips

MOST WANTED (at this exact moment...it will undoubtedly change often)

Papa John's Peperoni Pizza

A Costco cake (one chocolate and one vanilla)

P.S. I had half a walmart chocolate cake on Thursday night...yeah, I did it!

yes that is Cracker Barrels Deep Fried Catfish with mash potatoes in the picture....hot dang!

JUST WHEN I THOUGHT I WAS GOOD TO GO...

I fell...horribly.

After my last posting, I had an instant relapse...even as we speak, I'm downing a jumbo carrot muffin and some doritos but guess what...I've still been losing weight!

Modern day science can't explain how after eating either mash potatoes, big macs and mcdee's fries and other junk at midnight did not cause me to gain weight.

I also didn't workout for a full 3 days! Saturday I went to the Y to get back on the track and when I walked by the dreaded scale I hopped on it...

I feared but desired to see what it had to say. After all, I needed to put a number besides that damage that my poor diet had done. When I looked down at the digital numbers though I saw 157. I couldn't believe it.

157, but you say, "weren't you 155?". Let me finish, not only was that 157 after binging since January 26 but that was 157 after eating breakfast and in shoes....

So after a 45 minute run, weight training and a step class...I stepped on the scale, shoes off, and I weighed 153.4!

I can't believe it! And besides my l'il indiscretions right now, I've been good for the past 2 days so I must still being on a losing streak!

I can credit this continuous loss to running. In an attempt to curve my poor diet effects I've taken to running 45-60 minutes daily (when I do work out!). This is darn impressive considering I couldn't run a minute last year. Anyhoo, I'm gonna try to updates this weekly as my goal has become more obtainable and my desire more serious. I need to go shopping and I'm not doing it until I'm at 144 (total loss of 50lbs in just over a year). So I need to reach that goal soon!

i'm gonna make this quick...

I boo booed and just (as in at 10pm at night) had a Wendy's combo. An estimated 900 calories on a day that I didn't work out.

Well, as I was walking to the bus stop I concurred that I didn't do it because I was hungry or even because I was craving it. I WAS THIRSTY! Damn it. I haven't had water since like last week. Approximately the same time that I started binge eating.

Until today I have been waking up at 5 in the morning get in my runs and workouts. And when I came in after my Wendy's meal, my roommates boyfriend was like I've lost a lot of weight! It sucked though because he said I was pretty big when we first met (as if 165 on a 5 '4 female is fat!).

Either way his comment gave me the push I needed to get my ass back on the wagon. I'm drinking my green tea, just had some psyllium with like a litre of water and will be in the gym tomorrow morning running like I stole something! Cause like Jasmyne Cannick I'm on the "I'm in 3 or 4 weddings this year and above all else, never let your haters see you down or fatter than the last time they saw you” weight loss plan.

I'M BACK IN THIS TO WIN THIS

note to self:

1. 
   
   I must post what helped me to lose 40lbs. (ie. psyllium)


2. 
   
   post me in SELF magazine


3. 
   
   finally do what fat people like

UPDATE (FRIDAY FEB 6, 2009): I ONLY RAN 30 MINS THIS MORNING! INSTEAD OF THE 45...THERE'S ALWAYS TOMORROW!

They Say I Look Like A Completely Different Person...

I had to add a nvm.com model of when I was almost 200lbs (exhibit A, to the right) to remind myself that I have come a long way.

While I wish that my fat composition was lower (ie. wish I didn't look preggers when I'm not keeping a good posture), I am significantly smaller than I used to be. I used to look like an oompa loompa and now I'm "average". Even hot if I might add!

I haven't taken any pictures recently so here are pictures of me...at my fatty days and one when I was 165...WHAT A DIFFERENCE. My roomate looks at my early pictures on my facebook and says I "look like a different person."

And for the record, I still eat cake! And I actually thought I was slim looking when I took the first picture. I had gone down from 194 to about 186 in the pic.

(I am pictured above with mentor and speaker, Johnnie Williams III http://www.johnniewilliams.info/)

Holy, Batman! I'm updating this again!

I thought I would lapse and only do monthly updates but I haven't yet.

My Feb updates are approximations based on my last weigh in because I didn't weigh in on the first and my cheat day may have thrown it off anyway. (note: Cheat days...the 31st and the 1st)

Week # = 1 (from 164lbs)
Beginning Weight = 194 (Oct 2007)
Beginning Size = a Jacob 13/14
Goal #1 = 160 (completed January 9th)
Goal #2 = 144
Goal Size = 7/8
Current Weight = 155lbs
Current Size = 8's and 10's 37-29-41
Weight Loss = 39 pounds
Pounds to Go = 11 to final goal (144)

In case I forgot to say it last time, my new timeline has me completing my goal by March 31. At which time I will be buying a new wardrobe. Whudda thought I;d have 41 inch hips

Life is Good and God is Great!

..::AIN'T NOBOBY CAN LOVE ME BETTER...

than me!

I love myself so much that in the 26 days that passed this year I have worked out on 24 of them. That is dedication. Everytime I see something too convenient (like the mcdee's besides where I work) I say that the devil is a liar. I'm not stopping until I'm done...not pulling up...I have momentum.

And plus not eating out has saved me a couple of shekels.

Oh by the way, a shorty is coming in at a mean 159.4 in shoes and after a big breakfast and a lot of water! That means I'm at least 156.4 on average AND...that puts me 1.5 away from the smallest I've ever been.

I going all the way this time!

I've Never Been...

This disciplined.

I haven't been this small since 2001. I am about 2 pounds from being the smallest I've ever been in life and I can taste it. Mind you, I'm not seeing exactly what I want to be seeing. For example even though I went from a 37 inch waist to about a 29, I still have a gut...a big one. My overall body shape is a wonderful hour glass figure but let me not keep my posture and see what happens.

Now I don't want abs of steel but I do want to reduce my body fat immensely. When I technically start this journey back in October 2007 I was 33% body fat. I feel like I'm still at 30 something. My legs are great-ish but my arms and my stomach need some more work. This makes me feel like I should go down to 140 at least but I feel like if I lose 50 pounds I better be my idea of perfect. Who wants to lose more than that?

To others I will look like half my size. But in my eyes I will probably still be a work in progress. Man, my diet and weight woes have left me with a horrible complex. I could become a meager 100 pounds and still think I'm a fatty.

Well the good news is that I have hope that when I boost up my running and start doing spinning classes (two great fat burning activities) I will see the fat melt off of me. And once the warm weather starts up I will starting doing weekend hikes and long walks like I used to do.

Starting Feb 1 I am adapting a 1-1.5 pound a week plan just so I don't go psycho when I don't see the scale budge in a week.

That plan will also increase my intensity while reducing my workout time. It's the fool proof plan I mentioned before. So assuming I don't fall off the wagon (I'm 21 days strong), I should be at 144 sometime in March (I have until March 31).

Note:.. GREAT FAT BURNING EXERCISES

taken from http://www.ediets.com/news/NewsArticle.jsp?id=3200016

1. Jogging

2. Stepmill (the revolving steps not a stairclimber)

3. Aerobics Classes (Cardio Bootcamp, Cardio Kick Boxing, Step etc.)

4. Spinning

What is 3 Pounds?

Approximately the difference between what I am now and the smallest I've ever been. After 3 pounds I will begin my fool proof plan to take me to 145 (technically 144).

You see way back in 2001, when I lost my "baby fat" like all of my cousins-on both sides- I went from 185 to 155 in under 4 months. My ridiculous goal at the time was to be at 130lbs (clearly I had no understanding of my body type and thought this was achievable). Either way, I plateaued at 155 and despite so-so attempts, I never did make it lower.

Well for the past eight years I have dreamed about being at 155 again and have concocted a plan that will bring me past my 155 plateau. It will consist of me doing intense strength training and interval cardio. There is no way I won't reach my goal by doing that...and I will reach it within 4 weeks or less.

By the 21st of this month I should be at 155 so my fool proof plan will be commencing soon!

IT'S GOOD TO BE ME

I got my hair done today and woke up early on a Saturday and went a step class at the YMCA (probably the best I've been to since I first tried a step class back in 2000). I'm happy about that but I'm really happy is that after a grueling Bootcamp class at the Y and running for 30 mins on the treadmill, I finally saw what I've been long to see since late 2001.

The scale in the 150's. Now 158.8 isn't the 144 that God willing I will be seeing by the 18th of February but I'll take it and rejoice!

And what was my reward for that? Cooked chicken leg quarters from the grocery store. No not a cake, or a fast food combo but pure healthy protein. I'm changed!

UPDATE::..

Week # = 1 (from 164lbs)
Beginning Weight = 194
Beginning Size = a Jacob 13/14
Goal #1 = 160 (completed January 9th)
Goal #2 = 144
Goal Size = 7/8
Current Weight = 158.8 lbs
Current Size = 8's and 10's 37-30-42.5
Weight Loss = 35.2 pounds
Pounds to Go = 14.8 to final goal (144)

THIS IS IT .::2009 IS MY TIME::.

I'm gonna make this update quick (or as quick as one can be after not posting for over four months).

I am at a wonderful 161.2. The smallest I've been in over seven years! I accomplished this with a lot of McDee's, fries and other junk food. Needless to say, if I was watching what I ate and stuck to working out I would have made it to my goal of 144 by the end of the year.

Well in 2009 I'm more focused than ever. I have 7 days of healthy eating and working out under my belt and I don't intend to let up until I see the 140's. Despite what haters may say, I am planning to be there by February 18th, 2009. It would be even better to be there by the 4th of Feb because that would be a year since me and my diet buddy started this particular goal.

Imagine, this time last year I was in the late 180's (187 to be exact). And that was a deficit from 194-the highest I've seen on the scale (but probably not my highest period).

Now I'm tasting the low 160's. I will be doing a boot camp class at the YMCA on Friday morning and I will weigh in to see if since Tuesday I've lost anything significant (come on 159!).

The sad thing about this is that I feel just okay at 161.2. I should feel on top of the world like I did when I first reached the 160's. Maybe it's all the hard work ahead of me that prevents me from celebrating now. I have 7 weeks to lose 18lbs and I'm only down 1.

On a brighter note, I am featured in this month's SELF Magazine for my first 35lb success. It would have been nice to do the total 50 in time to be featured but that was taking to long!

Right now I am more or less following Jillian Michael's 30 day plan in her book Making the Cut. I better be 150 at least by the 4th.

So on my agenda for the rest of the month is looking for a new full time position and keeping on track to be at 144 sooner than later!

Best of luck to all those who are doing the diet thing for the new year too. We're gonna need it!

I Love B.Scott

I Love B.Scott
I discovered this person around last summer. He was funny but I was too busy to take note of his other videos. Today though I had a chance to go up and down on his youtube page and HE WAS HILARIOUS!!!

So I'm hooking up my love muffins with a part of one of my favourite Love B.Scott episodes and here is the link to his website http://lovebscott.sharenow.com/.

Stuff Fat People Like---random

Being distracted at the gym...

and the perfect accomplice for his is a MP3 player like the new zune by Microsoft...check out yccto.blogspot.com for a review of this cool product

what the?!?! is J-hud thinking

She used to be a good rep for us but now she is getting a bit too [put not so nice adjective here].

Last year because she was new to the celeb game, I forgave her. For not wearing a body shaper to the BET Awards. For lying saying she weighed 140lbs (she's 5'7, she would have looked a lot slimmer if she did). And for a plethora of other big girl offences.

But now it's too much. She is constantly looking like a stuffed sausage, wearing things that don't fit her. Look at her at the Sex and the City premiere? What would Jesus do if He saw her in that outfit or in the white dress with the peek-a-boo pink bra at the MTV Movies award?

Last night's (at the BET 2008 Awards) atrocity of an outfit (and hair do) have me wondering if J-Hud has lost her mind? Never mind the uncomfortable as hell scripted banter between her and Terrence Howard, what was she wearing? *Shaking my head*.

Besides not embracing an embracing girdle, J-hud's style in 2007 was good. Her hair was on point. Now she is experimenting too much.

My question is basically, now that you (J-hud) have a little cheddar, why not get yourself a trainer and lose some of that belly flab? I like you a lot. You are talented and can sang but I can't bring myself to look at you looking like you're about to burst.

P.S. Maybe you can get some tips from Toccara on how to keep it nice and fly if you're over 145.

.::New Goal::.

So when I first hit the 160's I got cocky over confident. I decided to bring up/down my goal to 140! Even wrote a long letter about my journey thus far, a bunch of corny stuff.

After struggling to make smart diet choices for the past 3 weeks though, I have decided to re-evaluate everything.

I thank God though because the scale, which was at 172ish last week, is back to saying 160 something (this morning-167.1). Also, despite eating out, being glutenous and late eating, I have been on point with my new workout regiment which has me running everyday - 2km 3x/week and 5km 2x/week. I boo booed and didn't work out this weekend though and even took a day off in the week but I think the intensity of running daily has boosted my metabolism.

So my conclusion is to bring my goal to 144, making my total desired loss 50lbs. It's a weird number I know. A bonus goal is for me to weigh that much in shoes (cus i was 194 in shoes). That would still make my goal just above 140 though.

I refuse to get suckered into wanting to weigh far less than 145. Even if 145 looks like crap on other people, I have confidence that my 145 will have me in a size 8US, 7/8CAN, 10UK. It will have me looking better than I've ever looked in my life.

Other than that I will be trying to maintain everything now that my schedule is changing.

in the picture: Taniesha Hayes- from www.THayesFitness.com

what the?!?!

it's been 2 weeks since I weighed in and despite a kick butt workout regime, I haven't lost a damn thing (with the exception of my mind). I've been here before though, at a 'plateau' but I have been changing things up so what is going on?

Either way, I have just gotten the Eat Clean Diet book (and met the lovely author Tosca Reno) and will commit myself to 'eating clean' for the next couple of week until my next weight in. I have to see 160! or even less.

First of the Month Weigh In

Because I do not conduct business on Sundays my weigh-in was deferred to to this morning.

Confession: In the three weeks that I didn't weigh myself I had/did the following

• Ate the equivalent of one whole 7" diameter cake (oreo cake from A&P-amazing)


• ate at a restaurant twice (3 courses--yes, dessert)


• drank about a bottle of wine


• only worked out 3 times in the second week


• had a snickers bar....

I'm sure i messed up more than that but those are some big ones....

so with all of that I'm am DARN proud to say that as of 8.40am this morning i weigh 166.5lbs

Only 1.5lbs off from what I wanted but 1.5lbs below what i was supposed to be at....it's a good day! It must have been all the running I've been doing! I ran 5km the other morning (sat. May 24th) after a hard and intense step class...and let me not forget the walking it out...every time I over ate, my feet hit the pavement.

Recap:

Week # = 9 (from 186lbs)

Beginning Weight = 194

Beginning Size = a Jacob 13/14

Goal #1 = 160 (so darn close...if I'm really good for two weeks I can WILL get there

Goal #2 = 145

Goal Size = 7/8
Current Weight = 166.5 lbs

Current Size = 11/12 37-30.5-42.5

Weight Loss = 27.5 pounds

Pounds to Go = 6.5 to first goal (160)

wouldn't it suck if...

After all my hard work for the past three weeks (while not weighing myself) i didn't lose a dime?
That is the problem with not weighing in often. I think I'm working hard but I have no scale to tell me if I am indeed working hard.

I have 5 workouts until my schedule weigh in on Monday morning. I betta see less than 170, I'm just saying. A sweet 165 would be even better. The thing is I haven't lost that many inches since the first of this month (I actually gained half an inch around my gut).

The Green and Lean failed, not miserably though. While I have still been having rye bread and whole grains, I have increased my green intake. So all in all it's not bad. Now will it bring me to 165 by Monday. I hope so.

Raven is Representing Us For Real!

I straight jacked this from concreteloop.com and I'm about a month late with it. Basically Raven talks about everything in her interview with Jet Magazine and her size comes up...Here is what she says;

"I have to stay true to who I am’, says Disney star Raven-Symoné, 22, regarding her new self-titled CD, which is slated for release April 29. ‘I am not going to sing about sex, drugs and violence, that’s just not who I am’, she continues. As she prepares for the CD’s release and a 55-city Pajama Party concert tour, the confident and talented entertainer hopes this project will fill a void in today’s music. We need some music that will open people’s minds up and give them other things to think about other than the same things we have been giving them for a while. Maybe my album can do that.’

While the 5-foot-2-inch singer-actress stays true to her music, she’s also staying true to her image by being comfortable with her size. ‘When I look in the mirror and see how voluptuously fabulous I am, I can’t even worry about it. I am just fabulous."

not weighing is the best...I think

As I type I could be sitting at a slim 165 but on the other end I could be a strong 170 or even worse, back to 175. There is so much unknown with not weighing but there is also peace of mind.

The good thing though is my next weigh is a week away so that give me time to do something so I don't see 1-7-anything on the scale.

The plan: The Lean and Green Diet!

Yes, I'm a genius. I found it impossible to get my necessary caloric intake on just green foods so I will include LEAN meats like beef and chicken and I also might have to throw in a Slim Fast shake every now and then.

Right now my waist is a 32 (I just ate) but If this goes well by next weekend I should be a 30, even after eating.

I will keep a journal 'cause this may become my staple 'I need to lose weight QUICK' diet.

Motivation Pile is down to 1

So this morning for no reason i decided to put on a pair of jeans i haven't been able to fit in, ever, although i have worn them once back in '06.

They are a UK size 10 and say US size 6 on 'em (i know right!). Anyhoo, i fit into them! these, a dress that I wore for mother's day and a black ?Guess pants size 31 were the pinnacle of my motivation pile. Now I can fit into 99% of everything I own, I have to start buying smaller sizes.

Now I have cheated something horrible this week but I will be back on track so for my June 1st weigh in I should be under 170 (hopefully 163-167).

I'm still amazed that they can fit. They didn't even fit when I bought 'em in Easter 2006 from TK Maxx (shout outs to my London, UK ppl!).

Well, 145 here I come man!

I'm looking good and feeling better and once this journey is done I will post my before and my after to motivate others!

update: upon further investigation i realized that the jeans were mis-labeled and are in fact a size 14 UK. Making them a size 10 US not 6. Dang.
Also May 23rd 2006 was the last time I wore these jeans. Exactly 2 years ago!

Note: my goal size would be a size 8 US

Mini Update

Beginning Weight = 194
Beginning Size = a Jacob 13/14
Goal Lbs. = 160Goal #2 = 145Goal Size = 7/8

Current Weight = less than 170 Pounds
Current Size = 11/12 37-31-43
Weight Loss = 24 plus pounds
Pounds to Go = less than 10 to first goal (160)

Week # = 6 (from 186lbs)

My belly is still big as heck...even considering I've shrank from a 37 inch waist to 31. So because of that I will be embarking on Green Diet, a diet that is 99.9% green coloured foods.

For example:

(this list includes things that just have green skin too!)

broccoli

green peas

apples

spinach

green banana (my j'cans know this)

olives

salad

those green smoothies...

This diet should effectively reduce my fat percentage thus allowing my pot belly to shrink. I will only be conducting it for one week at a time for maybe 3 weeks or so.

By June I will be playing in a soccer league so I probably won't be able to keep the carbs down...i will need the energy...so then my green diet will end.

Currently I am starting to only weigh myself monthly! On the first of the month. I can measure myself if I have the time though. I'm doing this to reduce the psycho rages I get when I flutter in weight from day to day. Overall, every month I should be at least 5lbs down. If I continue to eat properly and workout hard (like running up and down ski hills) there is no reason I won't keep shedding weight.

hm...I won't sweat it

The past two weeks were weird. I continued workout and eating right, confident that I would see 170 but instead i saw 174 then 175. Upset with the increasing pattern, I began to indulge. Had some pizza and food after 6 and just like I thought, I didn't gain a damn thing.

the reason I went up is still unknown (i wasn't bloated, constipated or menstruating) but two weeks later I'm happy to say that I'm at 171.6.



It's not the 168lb I swore I would be at by Mother's Day, but it's damn sure better than the 180 plus I was at in the beginning of April.



Needless to say, my splurges are stopping ASAP (well kind of).



Note: I will now concentrate on losing 1.25-1.5lbs per week. I'm trying to reduce the feeling of defeat when I don't reach my goals.



In relation to that the weigh-ins are now officially down to twice a month, most likely on Fridays.



And treating myself is now a necessity. Seeing as the scale is sometimes not my friend even when I'm faithful, I know will try the cheat meal (not day) thing. Today it's all about Wendy's!

How the heck did I let it get THIS FAR?

Sometimes I think “If I had just lost this 20lbs when I came back from England I would be fine…at a svelte 150. Instead I’m at 172.7lbs.”

I came back from 2 years abroad in May 2007 at 170lbs. By August I was 190lbs…for the first time ever. Then I crept slowly to 194lbs. I then got on the right track but there has been a few up and downs to slim down to the 170’s again.

Now my issues are;
1. Why did I gain/eat so much?
2. How can I make sure I don’t go up again?


It’s so serious because the stats say that over 70 percent of people who lose a significant amount of weight put it right back on.

(tears) I don’t wanna be a statistic!!!

So now I look at the errors I have made and ways I can keep myself in check.

Errors:
Late night eating -I’ll drink herbal tea and go to bed
Over-eating -I need to recognize and respect when I’m full
Eating with my ‘fat’ friends- I love them I really do but I’ll be damn if I let them bring me down…again
Eating refined carbs and process foods –it’s all poison whose calories your body doesn’t use efficiently
Falling off my workout schedule-I shouldn’t go more than 3 days without some exercise
Choosing horrible diet buddies – they quit, I quit and that’s not good

Check tips:
Weigh in weekly once I hit my goal –no more or no less ‘cause it’ll make me go psycho
Have people to keep you in check- work out buddies that are serious
No sitting- I can do crunches and ball stuff when I’m watching TV

No more than one treat per week- like poutine, street meat etc.

Do extra exercise to compensate for my treat
Walk it out –especially after big meals and excessive carbs

That’s all I got for now…

I put the damn pringles back and I didn't even trip on the golden oreos

They say the best way to avoid junk food is not to have it in your house...so instead of picking up the 2 for $2 pringles at No Frills, I just left it (after carrying it in my cart for 20 minutes).

It was rough...'cause I had worked really hard...even worked out on the weekend which I never do. I was even planning to go for a walk that evening (and I did, even ran up and down a mini ski hill 10 times then climbed the big one plus did some arm exercises).

All I could think when I first put it in my cart was “I friggin’ deserve this.” But then I got to thinking. What is the point of the all the work if I'm just gonna keep sabotaging it. Me not eating reward snacks can be the difference between meeting my goal and me not meeting it. Ya feel me? So for that reason the Pringles had to go. And there was no touching of the Golden Oreos (even if they are as good as vanilla girl guides cookies).

Fat Stats
Beginning Weight = 194

Beginning Size = a Jacob 13/14

Goal Lbs. = 160Goal #2 = 145
Goal Size = 7/8

Current Weight = 172.7 Pounds

Current Size = 11/12-13/14

Weight Loss = 21.3 pounds

Pounds to Go = 12.7Week # = 3 (from 186lbs)

"This is it. I can feel it, me losing all this weight. This is not to be confused with all the other times I said this is it." MCW

173.5 Man! and still shrinking...got 28.5 to go!

Stuff Fat People Like #1 being told they look like they lost weight

It's funny how in denial some of us can be. We weigh our selves every morning but the second that someone says we are slim we believe them.

Stuff Fat People Like

Starting a new section here on The Fat Stories called Stuff Fat People Like (SFPL). Following the trend started with stuff white people like (created by a fellow Canadian!). I will compile a list of things I know my people (us heavyweights) like.

Let the jokes begin!

176.5 Homie! ONLY 31.5 TO GO

I can't really remember when I started the journey from 194lbs but here is what I vaguely remember (all weight in gym clothes and shoes unless stated otherwise:

October 29 2007: I was 194 (at the gym in my shoes)

Thanksgiving 2007 (US): 186lbs

January 2008: Still 186-ish

February 4 2008: 185lbs

February 18 2008 (possibly the start date of my last major diet): 187lbs

Easter 2008 (March):182lbs (on that slimfast stuff..still haven't finished one can)

Today (April 18 2008): 176.5lbs (no shoes)

Hot Dog! I think I can taste me getting close to my first goal of 160 (a size 8 US), my second goal is gonna be 145-ish (148 in shoes!).

I guess perseverance is the key.

And a kick ass hip hop dance class...

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Phat Girlz Starring Mo'nique

This could quite possible be the worse movie I have ever watched (or at least in the top 100...I've watched a lot of movies).

Since its debut in 2006, I haven't been interested in watching it at all until it came on The Movie Network. I tivoed it and watched it. Ew.

It was oversaturated with fat girl dilemmas from not being able to fit into clothes to being made fun of to having deep insecurities. When I thought the movie was almost done, Mo'nique as Jasmine has a tantrum and becomes over depressed because she is fat, not Phat. This part began with her watching another depressed fat girl on T.V. while she was eating a whole pizza.

Now I'm all for movies about the big girl's plight but this was ridiculous.

I love Mo'nique, and I loved the beginning of this film (not when she's dreaming but when she quickly explains her life story) but overall I cannot recommend this movie to anyone, especially not my my skinny friends. They might think that I'm as depressed as Jasmine.

I also didn't like that fact that most of the movie made it seem like only African men would be interested in big beauties. Like we're supposed to fly to Nigeria to get some action. That was horrible.

Nice try Mo but you need to lay off the "everybody hates big girls" theme. We get love from all over.

Oh and to add insult to injury, look how they airbrushed the hell outta Mo on the DVD cover. That's not even funny!

Say It Loud, I'm fat and I'm proud!

Has Raven Symone ever mentioned her weight? She does carry herself well and knows what to wear for her size but has she ever come out and just said, "I am big and beautiful,baby." It's interesting how many of us live in constant denial about our size. Lemme help you figure out if your big or not.

Here's is a list that I came up with just now! Some are yes/no statements, some are just for you to gain some type of clarification. Here we go:

• 
  
  being 170, no matter what ethnicity you are, is fat unless you are 5'8 or taller


• 
  
  do your legs rub together? they don't on skinny ppl


• 
  
  even if you have an hourglass figure that doesn't make you fit, especially if you waist is a strong 36 plus inches


• 
  
  when all the jeans you have fit you like skinny jeans, you're fat


• 
  
  when people describe you as "the big one"...figure it out


• 
  
  here's a good one---if you buy your clothing in double digits (ie. 12,22 and XL etc.) chances are you're a big chick

Don't get me wrong, I am big, proud and loud so don't think I'm hating on others. But it irks me when I don't see people representing. Isn't it better to think your fat (not like how those with eating disorders do but if you are truly overweight) and have someone say your not then to sit there and think that your average and have someone brutally correct you? I'm just saying, if you had to chose between the two scenarios!

Anyway, if you got extra body, thank God and shake it but don't break it trynna squeeze into clothes you know don't fit you! ha

(above-a pic of chick who knows she's big and fly!)

FYI, mission "I gotta be a slim 160 again" is well underway, dropping 14lbs so far bring me to within 20lbs of my goal. Target date varies but let's say by July I'll be finished phase one!

Welcome to 2008

Congrats to Evan Bidell, winner of Project Runway Canada (above Iman)

Juno comes in at no.2 on it's fifth week out in theatres -seems really funny if your into that Knocked Up/Superbad type of movie

Look out for funny (in a dumb way) movies like First Friday and Welcome Home Roscoe Jenkins starring Martin Lawrence

Slowly Surely

My quest from J-hud's body to B's booty is looking good despite having to celebrate the season with numerous dinners.

My Goal is to be there by Easter. Imagine my surprise when I found out that this Easter is in March (not April). This means I have to work even harder. Ugh.

What Our Girls Up To

Dana Owens, aka Queen Latifah is going to be in the upcoming movie The Perfect Holiday alongside, Gabrielle Union and others. Also her latest jazz album has been getting a lot of praises so go support your girl!

Mo'nique is going to star as a weekend receptionist at the fictional Mode Magazine on Ugly Betty.

Raven Symone is going to be starring in the upcoming movie, College Road Trip with Martin Lawrence. The movie is in post production and hopefully will be release in 2008.

Why is Iman so beautiful?

Seriously, this chick is raping me with her makeup prices and yet I still love her. Iman cosmetics is the best in the market for ladies of colour by the way.

I don't have much to say but I hope that I can age as wonderfully as she has. Watch her on Project Runway Canada on Slice.

Why Did I Get Married

My initial rating for this movie was a 6.5 outta 10 (the more I thought about it the lower it got). Even though it wasn't excellent I still recommend that people go see it because it had some funny, touching and thoughtful points in it.

I think that my reaction to the movie was tainted because I read a negative review for it in the Toronto Star (2 outta 5 if I remember correctly). I know a middle age white guy wouldn't appreciate the movie but he did make some good comments that seem to hold true to most of Tyler P's movies.

A) It was too long: Why Did I was just under 2 hrs but it spent most of that time showing the conflict and not enough time with the resolution which leads to the next issue

B) Ending was too rushed: Same thing with Daddy's Little Girls (which I loved Idris Elba in), the movie detailed everything in depth and then pulls a microwaved ending. Why Did I left me with a question or too (not important questions but still it would have been nice to know---I won't say what because it'll ruin it for you)

C) It was fairytale-ish with the ending: aka Happily ever after like. Which is expected from a Tyler P production

Like I said I still recommend people go see it because overall it's a good movie (highlights: 20/80 rule -from TD Jakes, Tasha Smith and the foine sheriff)

ciao

P.S don't forget that This Christmas (Chris Brown, Idris Elba, Perfect Holiday (Gabrielle Union), and American Gangster (Denzel Washington) are coming out this season!

The Britney Saga..she has MJS

Blah. Blah. Blah.

Now that I've said that I can move on. I think that Brit is just suffering from what I call the Michael Jackson Syndrome (MJS). She just grew up too fast, had no childhood (even though I don't think that is good reason enough to be a screw up, it seems to be sufficient for celebs).

The reason why MJS is different from plain ol' ‘not having a childhood’ (when kids have to grow up too fast due to serious issues-family, disease) is because MJS’s have 'yes men'. Brit and the name sake of the disease have been the centre of their universe for a while and although their families tried to keep them grounded, eventually their inner circle became filled with people who didn't care about them as humans—they just want their handouts.

It's a sad situation for them but what makes it worse is the constant discussion in the media. I'M SICK OF BRITNEY NEWS. I feel sorry for the chick but damn. People are losing their lives in Iraq and in our neighbourhoods—there are bigger issues out there.

One Love, Britney, and I hope you get better soon. Shame on those who don't see that you need help.
P.S. She is not fat!!! She may not be as toned as she was before 2 kids but she looks damn good!

Weight Obsession-take one

janet, mariah, beyonce, ashanti, britney.

what do they have in common? their weight fluctuates, as it should. but for some reason when we see it on them we think that that's it for them. like when bey put back on the weight she lost for her role in dream girls everyone was commenting on it as if a) she didn't look good and b) she would never be able to lose it.

these are stars. it's their job to look good when they are working (promoting an album, in concert etc.) does it matter if they put on some weight when they are on their off-season? no, it doesn't and it damn well shouldn't. these people have access to professionals (trainers and cooks) that can have them down to a size 4 before me or you could even lose 5lbs.

i'm for celebrating our non-stick-thin celebs so i give props to all those who are showing their curves!!!

ps. look out for my essay on the "downfall" of britney...

Personal Info!!!

can i tell you that some how in the last 2 months or so i have put on 20lbs! how is that possible? in any event i don't like it. everything thing that i love wearing like my H&M tweed blazer has decided to stop fitting and if i do fit into it i look and feel darn uncomfortable.

with that being said...i'm pretty much disgusted that i let it get this bad and have decided to do Self Magazine's new you program (its on self.com). i've been doing it for the last 3 days and already i've lost 2lbs. i know i have a way to go but we'll see how it works out.

officially now i'm 185 and if i'm going to commit to something i might as well go all the way so my goal is going to be 145ish in 6 months (24 wks) to lose the 40. wish me luck!

if you're thinking about weight loss too check out http://jasmynecannick.typepad.com/jasmynecannickcom/weight_loss_diary/index.html

this girl is very inspiring she's lost over 60lbs in 24 weeks!

lata and wish me luck...

Countess Wrong Vaughn

i recently saw the funniest star confidential on tv showing the bff's of tv and guest who was on it? countess duh!

now before i rant let me just say i've loved this girl since seeing her on star search and then on 227 but she needs to get it together. up on tv talking bout the multiply surgeries she got (lipo in like 4 places plus a butt pump). and the worse things was i didn't even notice the difference. my goodness she was still big (i know on parkers they barely mentioned her weight as if to say being 4'10 and 160lbs plus is normal-its not) and to top it off she was in denial-saying that she was satisfied and thinks she looks great! ha.

countess, best of luck with your desired singing career. i just hope that you embrace your body and stay away from the surgeries...and btw what's up with gaining weight on the celebrity fit club?

American Idol Plus

so i know that i'm way behind but it has just come to my attention that some low self-esteem blonde chick named meme roth has called my girl Jordin Sparks obese!?!? WTMuck?

she is tall (i think 5 '9 or more) and has shape and apparently that's what is passing for obese nowadays. well that leave no hope for me and my 5 '4 -on a good day- ass.

it's so twisted that in 2007 there is dumb idiots in this world that don't realize that we were meant to be in different shapes and sizes. miss roth also said that her prediction is that jordin will win and then lose up to 40lbs just like other Idol winners. fat chance, no pun intended :), jordin has already said that she has spent a majority of her life dieting so i'm guessing she has grown to love where she is and despite her 'obesity' she still won Idol. also which Idol winners did she see that lost weight? most have gained like Ruben, Fantasia and even Kelly.

miss meme roth just pissed me off but on a brighter note she seemed to have piss everyone off too. some skinny bitch need to shut-up. yah, there is a weight problem with youths in america but damn it using jordin as an example is just stupid.

jordin, you go girl!