..::AIN'T NOBOBY CAN LOVE ME BETTER...

than me!

I love myself so much that in the 26 days that passed this year I have worked out on 24 of them. That is dedication. Everytime I see something too convenient (like the mcdee's besides where I work) I say that the devil is a liar. I'm not stopping until I'm done...not pulling up...I have momentum.

And plus not eating out has saved me a couple of shekels.

Oh by the way, a shorty is coming in at a mean 159.4 in shoes and after a big breakfast and a lot of water! That means I'm at least 156.4 on average AND...that puts me 1.5 away from the smallest I've ever been.

I going all the way this time!

I've Never Been...

This disciplined.

I haven't been this small since 2001. I am about 2 pounds from being the smallest I've ever been in life and I can taste it. Mind you, I'm not seeing exactly what I want to be seeing. For example even though I went from a 37 inch waist to about a 29, I still have a gut...a big one. My overall body shape is a wonderful hour glass figure but let me not keep my posture and see what happens.

Now I don't want abs of steel but I do want to reduce my body fat immensely. When I technically start this journey back in October 2007 I was 33% body fat. I feel like I'm still at 30 something. My legs are great-ish but my arms and my stomach need some more work. This makes me feel like I should go down to 140 at least but I feel like if I lose 50 pounds I better be my idea of perfect. Who wants to lose more than that?

To others I will look like half my size. But in my eyes I will probably still be a work in progress. Man, my diet and weight woes have left me with a horrible complex. I could become a meager 100 pounds and still think I'm a fatty.

Well the good news is that I have hope that when I boost up my running and start doing spinning classes (two great fat burning activities) I will see the fat melt off of me. And once the warm weather starts up I will starting doing weekend hikes and long walks like I used to do.

Starting Feb 1 I am adapting a 1-1.5 pound a week plan just so I don't go psycho when I don't see the scale budge in a week.

That plan will also increase my intensity while reducing my workout time. It's the fool proof plan I mentioned before. So assuming I don't fall off the wagon (I'm 21 days strong), I should be at 144 sometime in March (I have until March 31).

Note:.. GREAT FAT BURNING EXERCISES

taken from http://www.ediets.com/news/NewsArticle.jsp?id=3200016

1. Jogging

2. Stepmill (the revolving steps not a stairclimber)

3. Aerobics Classes (Cardio Bootcamp, Cardio Kick Boxing, Step etc.)

4. Spinning

What is 3 Pounds?

Approximately the difference between what I am now and the smallest I've ever been. After 3 pounds I will begin my fool proof plan to take me to 145 (technically 144).

You see way back in 2001, when I lost my "baby fat" like all of my cousins-on both sides- I went from 185 to 155 in under 4 months. My ridiculous goal at the time was to be at 130lbs (clearly I had no understanding of my body type and thought this was achievable). Either way, I plateaued at 155 and despite so-so attempts, I never did make it lower.

Well for the past eight years I have dreamed about being at 155 again and have concocted a plan that will bring me past my 155 plateau. It will consist of me doing intense strength training and interval cardio. There is no way I won't reach my goal by doing that...and I will reach it within 4 weeks or less.

By the 21st of this month I should be at 155 so my fool proof plan will be commencing soon!

IT'S GOOD TO BE ME

I got my hair done today and woke up early on a Saturday and went a step class at the YMCA (probably the best I've been to since I first tried a step class back in 2000). I'm happy about that but I'm really happy is that after a grueling Bootcamp class at the Y and running for 30 mins on the treadmill, I finally saw what I've been long to see since late 2001.

The scale in the 150's. Now 158.8 isn't the 144 that God willing I will be seeing by the 18th of February but I'll take it and rejoice!

And what was my reward for that? Cooked chicken leg quarters from the grocery store. No not a cake, or a fast food combo but pure healthy protein. I'm changed!

UPDATE::..

Week # = 1 (from 164lbs)
Beginning Weight = 194
Beginning Size = a Jacob 13/14
Goal #1 = 160 (completed January 9th)
Goal #2 = 144
Goal Size = 7/8
Current Weight = 158.8 lbs
Current Size = 8's and 10's 37-30-42.5
Weight Loss = 35.2 pounds
Pounds to Go = 14.8 to final goal (144)

THIS IS IT .::2009 IS MY TIME::.

I'm gonna make this update quick (or as quick as one can be after not posting for over four months).

I am at a wonderful 161.2. The smallest I've been in over seven years! I accomplished this with a lot of McDee's, fries and other junk food. Needless to say, if I was watching what I ate and stuck to working out I would have made it to my goal of 144 by the end of the year.

Well in 2009 I'm more focused than ever. I have 7 days of healthy eating and working out under my belt and I don't intend to let up until I see the 140's. Despite what haters may say, I am planning to be there by February 18th, 2009. It would be even better to be there by the 4th of Feb because that would be a year since me and my diet buddy started this particular goal.

Imagine, this time last year I was in the late 180's (187 to be exact). And that was a deficit from 194-the highest I've seen on the scale (but probably not my highest period).

Now I'm tasting the low 160's. I will be doing a boot camp class at the YMCA on Friday morning and I will weigh in to see if since Tuesday I've lost anything significant (come on 159!).

The sad thing about this is that I feel just okay at 161.2. I should feel on top of the world like I did when I first reached the 160's. Maybe it's all the hard work ahead of me that prevents me from celebrating now. I have 7 weeks to lose 18lbs and I'm only down 1.

On a brighter note, I am featured in this month's SELF Magazine for my first 35lb success. It would have been nice to do the total 50 in time to be featured but that was taking to long!

Right now I am more or less following Jillian Michael's 30 day plan in her book Making the Cut. I better be 150 at least by the 4th.

So on my agenda for the rest of the month is looking for a new full time position and keeping on track to be at 144 sooner than later!

Best of luck to all those who are doing the diet thing for the new year too. We're gonna need it!