...:::mY wEaKneSSeS:::...

The following, in no particular order, are foods/restaurants that will always have a warm place in my heart. Below that are foods/restaurants that are on my most wanted list....

All of these have the potential to put me back up to 200lbs therefore they are on my potential threat list.

Cinnabon

Big Mac

McDonald fries

Pizza Pizza Pizza http://www.pizzapizza.ca/

Pizza Hut

A&P Oreo Cake

Costco Cake (hold the custard)

Starbucks Red Velvette Cupcake

Starbucks Vanilla Bean Cupcake

Walmart Fresh Cupcakes

Chan's Chinese Food

Wendy's Fries

Poutine

Roti

Cracker Barrel Deep fried mac and cheese

Cracker Barrel fried Catfish

Fish and Chips

MOST WANTED (at this exact moment...it will undoubtedly change often)

Papa John's Peperoni Pizza

A Costco cake (one chocolate and one vanilla)

P.S. I had half a walmart chocolate cake on Thursday night...yeah, I did it!

yes that is Cracker Barrels Deep Fried Catfish with mash potatoes in the picture....hot dang!

JUST WHEN I THOUGHT I WAS GOOD TO GO...

I fell...horribly.

After my last posting, I had an instant relapse...even as we speak, I'm downing a jumbo carrot muffin and some doritos but guess what...I've still been losing weight!

Modern day science can't explain how after eating either mash potatoes, big macs and mcdee's fries and other junk at midnight did not cause me to gain weight.

I also didn't workout for a full 3 days! Saturday I went to the Y to get back on the track and when I walked by the dreaded scale I hopped on it...

I feared but desired to see what it had to say. After all, I needed to put a number besides that damage that my poor diet had done. When I looked down at the digital numbers though I saw 157. I couldn't believe it.

157, but you say, "weren't you 155?". Let me finish, not only was that 157 after binging since January 26 but that was 157 after eating breakfast and in shoes....

So after a 45 minute run, weight training and a step class...I stepped on the scale, shoes off, and I weighed 153.4!

I can't believe it! And besides my l'il indiscretions right now, I've been good for the past 2 days so I must still being on a losing streak!

I can credit this continuous loss to running. In an attempt to curve my poor diet effects I've taken to running 45-60 minutes daily (when I do work out!). This is darn impressive considering I couldn't run a minute last year. Anyhoo, I'm gonna try to updates this weekly as my goal has become more obtainable and my desire more serious. I need to go shopping and I'm not doing it until I'm at 144 (total loss of 50lbs in just over a year). So I need to reach that goal soon!

i'm gonna make this quick...

I boo booed and just (as in at 10pm at night) had a Wendy's combo. An estimated 900 calories on a day that I didn't work out.

Well, as I was walking to the bus stop I concurred that I didn't do it because I was hungry or even because I was craving it. I WAS THIRSTY! Damn it. I haven't had water since like last week. Approximately the same time that I started binge eating.

Until today I have been waking up at 5 in the morning get in my runs and workouts. And when I came in after my Wendy's meal, my roommates boyfriend was like I've lost a lot of weight! It sucked though because he said I was pretty big when we first met (as if 165 on a 5 '4 female is fat!).

Either way his comment gave me the push I needed to get my ass back on the wagon. I'm drinking my green tea, just had some psyllium with like a litre of water and will be in the gym tomorrow morning running like I stole something! Cause like Jasmyne Cannick I'm on the "I'm in 3 or 4 weddings this year and above all else, never let your haters see you down or fatter than the last time they saw you” weight loss plan.

I'M BACK IN THIS TO WIN THIS

note to self:

1. 
   
   I must post what helped me to lose 40lbs. (ie. psyllium)


2. 
   
   post me in SELF magazine


3. 
   
   finally do what fat people like

UPDATE (FRIDAY FEB 6, 2009): I ONLY RAN 30 MINS THIS MORNING! INSTEAD OF THE 45...THERE'S ALWAYS TOMORROW!

They Say I Look Like A Completely Different Person...

I had to add a nvm.com model of when I was almost 200lbs (exhibit A, to the right) to remind myself that I have come a long way.

While I wish that my fat composition was lower (ie. wish I didn't look preggers when I'm not keeping a good posture), I am significantly smaller than I used to be. I used to look like an oompa loompa and now I'm "average". Even hot if I might add!

I haven't taken any pictures recently so here are pictures of me...at my fatty days and one when I was 165...WHAT A DIFFERENCE. My roomate looks at my early pictures on my facebook and says I "look like a different person."

And for the record, I still eat cake! And I actually thought I was slim looking when I took the first picture. I had gone down from 194 to about 186 in the pic.

(I am pictured above with mentor and speaker, Johnnie Williams III http://www.johnniewilliams.info/)

Holy, Batman! I'm updating this again!

I thought I would lapse and only do monthly updates but I haven't yet.

My Feb updates are approximations based on my last weigh in because I didn't weigh in on the first and my cheat day may have thrown it off anyway. (note: Cheat days...the 31st and the 1st)

Week # = 1 (from 164lbs)
Beginning Weight = 194 (Oct 2007)
Beginning Size = a Jacob 13/14
Goal #1 = 160 (completed January 9th)
Goal #2 = 144
Goal Size = 7/8
Current Weight = 155lbs
Current Size = 8's and 10's 37-29-41
Weight Loss = 39 pounds
Pounds to Go = 11 to final goal (144)

In case I forgot to say it last time, my new timeline has me completing my goal by March 31. At which time I will be buying a new wardrobe. Whudda thought I;d have 41 inch hips

Life is Good and God is Great!