Christmas Break

This is it...A break from blogging and ultimately dieting until the new year. The year when I will achieve all of my dreams. I have post its and notes all over my room to inspire me. Eventually I will accomplish EVERYTHING I set out to accomplish. It won`t be easy. For the next 9 days I will be charting out my journey.

There has been a lot of bad and good news in the world this year. First black president, but the war still goes on. Lots of celebs have died, football players to the King of Pop. All so tragic. Even this week Britney Murphy and Chris Henry died. The saddest death to me though was that of Jade Goody. She succumbed to cancer earlier this year leaving behind her children and husband. She became a reality star in 2002 and although a lot of stars have passed this year the fact that she was my age, 27, made hers hurt me the most.

If I were to pass away right now I would feel so unaccomplished. I am not trying to change the world but I want to achieve a lot more than what I have at this point. I need to plan a way to continue to achieve and reach new highs in 2010...

my friend said this reminds her of me: People Think I got a Horseshoe Up My--

HOTTTT!!!!

horseshoe up my ass...

So celebs talk about it too

Being off has given me time to catch up on some daytime television...

Y&R is at the top of my catch up list but I've also taken to watching the cosby show, the wendy williams show, magnum p.i., the rockford files, maury and oprah.

I haven't watched Oprah all year. She's in reruns now but it's all new to me! Especially her fat shows. Last week it was Star Jones. It was great because I really think Star is cool people. Yeah she may have married a gay dude and was fired from the view, but she's still a very accomplished woman and that inspires me. The best thing from that show was when she said she still wakes up 307lbs some days. I know exactly what she's talking about. I'm sure others who have changed body types can agree that losing weight in your body doesn't mean you've lost the feelings you used to have. She's lost a whole person and still doesn't feel satisfied sometimes. I've lost over 40 and I still act and feel like fat me sometimes.

This weeks fat show featured Kirstie Alley. (shaking my head). She was really doing her thing on Jenny Craig and now she's fallen off horrible. The whack part about her interview was when she said she found the formula and has lost 20lbs in the past 5 weeks. Get the heck outta here! Even Oprah had to call her out on her BS. There is no formula and any punk whose done a diet in their life would know that! Ugh.

I do give her props though for being honest about the fact that She introduced success story, Valerie Bertinelli to Jenny and now home girl is wearing a bikini on the cover of People. Ouch. Even when Oprah was like "you know you shouldn't compare your body to others," Kirstie was like yes you should! lol.

The best part about that interview was when Oprah was like "can you believe that we are still talking about this." Any fatty (former or otherwise) knows what she meant. I mean me and my girl NG go on and on about how we are sick about talking about our next diet, meal plan etc. And Oprah feels our sentiments. It sucks but this thing is our lives. We will always be talking about it especially if we don't want to go back up.

I'm learning from Oprah and even Kirstie because I AM NOT GOING BACK UP...i got too many outfits and people to prove wrong to even entertain the idea of seeing 160 plus anything on the scale. Not even pregnancy should bring me back up there! Oprah was talking about giving yourself 5lbs but I've done that before and that quickly turns to 15lbs and in my case 50lbs.

I know I will do it too because I have two cousins who have successfully lost their baby fat and never put it back...one of them even had a baby and was back in shape within 2 weeks!

Exercise is a part of my life forever and so is making good food choices!

THE BIGGEST SHOCK EVER

not tupac, biggie, aaliyah or even luther's death shocked me so much.

if i thought about it, i would have seen it coming. instead i chose to ignore the signs and listen to his classic hits (PYT, blame it on the boogie...) on my ipod as i worked out.

Now, 24 hours later and 48 hours before i leave for england i sit in a state of shock. black michael, white michael, young michael, old michael...it doesn't matter. HE WAS THE BEST.

Thank you, Jesus for blessing the world with this awesome human being.

to those who knew him from when he was the oh so cute boy in the jackson 5-the motown crew- my heart goes out to them. while his mentor James Brown died before this day, all of those who michael admired are still here, diana ross, elizabeth taylor, berry gordy, quincy jones, smokie robinson...even his parents and all his siblings are still here...

i'm probably going to cry it out at the funeral....

below is a pic of the swexy Michael Jackson at his best...

I can't wait 'til the end of the month

I'm gonna start acting like I'm in the 140's from now. I'm in the market for a new motivation or maybe inspiration, like a body that I would like to achieve. I am kind of procrastinating on my lunch time workout to write this but I may as well do something good while I stall.

I used to have a pic of a Spanish actress, I don't remember her name but her body (like most of the other Latina actresses) was banging. Like my Weight Watchers scale (which went back to walmart within a week) said my body fat was 31.7 give or take 0.1 or so through out last week and I now know I probably won't go down to no 15% (even though I swear back in 2001 it was like 11% when I was 155lbs). With all that being considered I have to be careful who I use to inspire me. Plus I do have curves which bring up the obvious inspirations like Beyonce, J-Lo, Tyra, Janet etc. But at the same time I feel like I have a more svelte and muscular physique like Fergie or Jessica Biel. Oh the choices...all of those ladies have a beautiful body though. But I want to choose one to emulate as I strive to be in beach ready mode by May for a beautiful beach wedding to which I am the only bridesmaid!

Soooo the winner of the I WANT HER BODY contest is....

Yes, that's kim kardashian and while i'm not a fan of anything else she does, she does have a great and curvy body. She says she weighs 120 but I'm not buying that- maybe 130 or a bit more because she is only 5"2. Her measurements are 35-26-40 and mine right now are 37.5-29-42. I have 2 inches on her though so I will look a bit more lean...I think...

As for the fact that I'm more athletic than her...well I don't think I will be walking around as svelte as Fergie anytime soon but who knows...I am a runner now!

Running Update: I dunno if I wrote about this but I run (yes run at 10kms/hr sometimes) 6 days a week and 60 minutes for two of those days and 30-45 on the the other days. Now compared to Katy from http://www.katycraker.blogspot.com/ I'm an amateur but I will work my way up to the 14 miles that she does!

P.S. I got a subscription to SHAPE...I wanted SELF but SHAPE was half the price! Can't weight to get my first issue!

I Love B.Scott

I Love B.Scott
I discovered this person around last summer. He was funny but I was too busy to take note of his other videos. Today though I had a chance to go up and down on his youtube page and HE WAS HILARIOUS!!!

So I'm hooking up my love muffins with a part of one of my favourite Love B.Scott episodes and here is the link to his website http://lovebscott.sharenow.com/.

what the?!?! is J-hud thinking

She used to be a good rep for us but now she is getting a bit too [put not so nice adjective here].

Last year because she was new to the celeb game, I forgave her. For not wearing a body shaper to the BET Awards. For lying saying she weighed 140lbs (she's 5'7, she would have looked a lot slimmer if she did). And for a plethora of other big girl offences.

But now it's too much. She is constantly looking like a stuffed sausage, wearing things that don't fit her. Look at her at the Sex and the City premiere? What would Jesus do if He saw her in that outfit or in the white dress with the peek-a-boo pink bra at the MTV Movies award?

Last night's (at the BET 2008 Awards) atrocity of an outfit (and hair do) have me wondering if J-Hud has lost her mind? Never mind the uncomfortable as hell scripted banter between her and Terrence Howard, what was she wearing? *Shaking my head*.

Besides not embracing an embracing girdle, J-hud's style in 2007 was good. Her hair was on point. Now she is experimenting too much.

My question is basically, now that you (J-hud) have a little cheddar, why not get yourself a trainer and lose some of that belly flab? I like you a lot. You are talented and can sang but I can't bring myself to look at you looking like you're about to burst.

P.S. Maybe you can get some tips from Toccara on how to keep it nice and fly if you're over 145.

Raven is Representing Us For Real!

I straight jacked this from concreteloop.com and I'm about a month late with it. Basically Raven talks about everything in her interview with Jet Magazine and her size comes up...Here is what she says;

"I have to stay true to who I am’, says Disney star Raven-Symoné, 22, regarding her new self-titled CD, which is slated for release April 29. ‘I am not going to sing about sex, drugs and violence, that’s just not who I am’, she continues. As she prepares for the CD’s release and a 55-city Pajama Party concert tour, the confident and talented entertainer hopes this project will fill a void in today’s music. We need some music that will open people’s minds up and give them other things to think about other than the same things we have been giving them for a while. Maybe my album can do that.’

While the 5-foot-2-inch singer-actress stays true to her music, she’s also staying true to her image by being comfortable with her size. ‘When I look in the mirror and see how voluptuously fabulous I am, I can’t even worry about it. I am just fabulous."

What Our Girls Up To

Dana Owens, aka Queen Latifah is going to be in the upcoming movie The Perfect Holiday alongside, Gabrielle Union and others. Also her latest jazz album has been getting a lot of praises so go support your girl!

Mo'nique is going to star as a weekend receptionist at the fictional Mode Magazine on Ugly Betty.

Raven Symone is going to be starring in the upcoming movie, College Road Trip with Martin Lawrence. The movie is in post production and hopefully will be release in 2008.

The Britney Saga..she has MJS

Blah. Blah. Blah.

Now that I've said that I can move on. I think that Brit is just suffering from what I call the Michael Jackson Syndrome (MJS). She just grew up too fast, had no childhood (even though I don't think that is good reason enough to be a screw up, it seems to be sufficient for celebs).

The reason why MJS is different from plain ol' ‘not having a childhood’ (when kids have to grow up too fast due to serious issues-family, disease) is because MJS’s have 'yes men'. Brit and the name sake of the disease have been the centre of their universe for a while and although their families tried to keep them grounded, eventually their inner circle became filled with people who didn't care about them as humans—they just want their handouts.

It's a sad situation for them but what makes it worse is the constant discussion in the media. I'M SICK OF BRITNEY NEWS. I feel sorry for the chick but damn. People are losing their lives in Iraq and in our neighbourhoods—there are bigger issues out there.

One Love, Britney, and I hope you get better soon. Shame on those who don't see that you need help.
P.S. She is not fat!!! She may not be as toned as she was before 2 kids but she looks damn good!